Eyes Wide Open by Ted Dekker

Author:Ted Dekker
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Tags: FICTION/Suspense
Publisher: Outlaw Studios
Published: 2013-01-14T05:00:00+00:00

HOW LONG Christy had been alone, pacing in her room, she no longer knew. Time seemed to have shifted into a new paradigm that cycled back on itself every few minutes as the memory of what had happened spun through her mind.

What had happened? She’d seen some things. For the first time she could recall, she’d broken the barrier that blotted out her childhood. It’s what she had always wanted.

It was the stuff of nightmares.

She was a nightmare.

One that walked on two legs, with blood pumping through her veins, and a mind to record each dreadful step. If there was a hell worse than the one she’d been thrown into, she pitied the followers of the god who’d made it.

Her left index finger was bleeding at the nail, which she’d long ago chewed down to nothing. She’d seen her ugly self last night and, truth be told, she hated both of her selves—the ugly one and the uglier one.

Which one she really was didn’t matter as much as what she’d learned about her childhood. Her delusional state, now all but certain, was the clear result of inhuman treatment. An abusive adult had held her captive in a prison. Her mind had shut off the horror of it all as a means of coping.

She paced back and forth on the tile floor in her bedroom, crushed by the memory. How could anyone do that to a child? How old had she been? Twelve. And younger, because while in that basement room she had the distinct sense that she’d been there a long time. Maybe her whole life.

The thought sickened her. But there was more than deep self-pity flowing through her veins now. Bitterness and rage screamed through her mind, demanding some kind of justice.

Nancy had comforted her with soothing words for half an hour, and had then led her back to her room with the promise that, however painful, this was all part of her healing. She would give her an hour to gather herself before meeting again.

Healing? How could anyone heal from being born ugly to abandonment and abuse?

She couldn’t get the song she’d heard under hypnosis out of her mind.

Be careful little eyes what you see… Why? Because the father up above was looking down in love, of course. Her father.

Evidently, she hadn’t been careful enough. Not good enough, not pretty enough. Thoughts of what kind of father hers might be made her cringe.

What had she done? That’s what she couldn’t figure out. What could any innocent little girl have possibly done to deserve such a terrible warning?

Something. And the truth was, she hated herself for doing whatever she had done to become what she’d become.

Christy glanced at the bathroom door again. She had to pee, but the thought of going inside was too much. What if she opened the door and found the walls mirrored? Or, worse, saw the uglier Christy staring back at her? She was ugly either way, but coming face to face with the image she’d seen last night would be too much.

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